2025.09.30 20:26

ok, so i'm doing journals on the website for real this time (for real!!!!!). just to make it clear that i'm a person, and all that

however, i'm having a damn tough time finding the balance between oversharing and being to vauge. like, i *could* add 5 journals from a single day detailing music production woes....... but i could also be so much more concise and get the same point across

i guess that begs the question: is the point of uploading journals to communicate a point, or the journey? i'd probably lean towards the latter, but when i have months long gaps in what i've added, and then 5 from one day, it just feels so horribly unbalanced. so i don't know. i guess i could always add some more later, but i've REALLY gotta stop saying "i'll add stuff later". i should just add the damn journals! let the people see the depths i descend to while i bang my head against a wall again and again and again (again)

i realize that this is also extremely meta, writing about journal-adding in a journal very likely to be added by this same journal-adding process. so uhh hello person! i hope it's clear that i'm a person. i've always written these journals in a way that expects future persons to have eyeballs on them, so it's cool to move the odds of observation from 0% to 1% (or somewhere around there)